Thursday, November 06, 2014

Blog migrated!

Hi all,

I have migrated to www.realgunner.com, do visit me there, I am still alive and kicking! ;)

Sunday, June 29, 2014

烦 Frustration

最近除了工作工作工作再工作 一闲暇下来就会胡思乱想反复思考我的人生。

当初决定离乡背井 北上来到槟城打拼时 我原先定下在这里最多呆个2-3年 用2-3年来累计工作经验 然后就闪人去更遥远的地方寻找自己的蓝天。其实我最初的目标根本不是槟城,而是去新加坡赚2块半,只是申请了很多新加坡公司 苦等了很多个月 最终还是只有苦等。

可惜念书的时候被无良的大公司经理们来到学院演讲唆摆 说什么[考试成绩不重要,人品才是最重要]之类的鸟话 害到天真的我放弃了只追求考试成绩的干劲 结果只考到了一纸二等上学位。 出来社会找工的时候才惊觉如果没有一等学位 那些之前说鸟话的经理根本是不太会理睬的。在座的如果有还在念书的小朋友们 千万要把试给考好 千万千万不要相信[考试成绩不重要]这句鸟话!

不过话说回来,我来到槟城的际遇还算不错。进了一家美国大公司 上司也不错 起初工作还真的蛮愉快的,还去了好几趟美国,所以一呆就呆了6年有多。只是工作越久就觉得越不对境,面对着经济大海啸的打击 看着公司的总裁一次又一次的发了自己几百万美元的红利 同时实行一系列削夺员工福利的措施 心情一次又一次的下沉。

看着自己薪水每年微涨5% 楼价却高涨50%, 经济饭从5年前的RM3.50起价起到现在的RM6 (70%),咖啡冰从RM0.90起到RM1.60 (77%),怎么感觉打工越久生命就越坎坷?

曾几何时,我的计划是在35岁之前赚够被动收入,然后就退休去环游世界。而今面对现实的洗礼,计划顿时化为梦想,而且是近乎幻想似的。我工作了快要6年了,好像跟6年前一样一无是处。 我这6年到底在干什么?

有时候真的很想狠下心来,冲动的去丢信,背上背包去浪迹天涯,寻求属于自己芳草。不过这念头每次都是一闪而过而已,因为很快就会想起6年前辞去吉隆坡的工作,敢敢跑来槟城找工,结果沦落至半年无收入的凄惨。每次想到这个,我心里的那团火就会自动被浇熄。

最近开始看了很多旅游博客的网记,每次看了都会很羡慕,因为他们都做了我想做而不敢做的事情,而且个个都看似对自己的生活很满意。难道我这怕死的心态 错了??难道我应该重复6年前的那股热诚,敢敢抛下所有的顾虑?

很烦。

For me, it has been either working, working, working and then working lately, or when there is some breathing space, I will spend the time to think about nonsense reflect about my life.

When I first decided to leave my hometown and head north to Penang, my original idea was to stay here for 2 to 3 years at most. I will use this 2 to 3 years to work my ass of and accumulate the invaluable work experience, and then fuck off head off to some further away places to search for my piece of blue horizon. To be honest, Penang was not my first choice, I originally wanted to go to Singapore and earn that RM2.50 conversion rate instead. Unfortunately, after applying into many companies and many months of waiting, in the end that was what it ever was, just waiting.

The problem was back in my college days, there used to be a lot of instances where those immoral managers from the big companies would come to give us career talks misguidance. The would spew bullshit like [Exam results are not important, what matters is your attitude], that kind of nonsense. I believed it, and back then because I was sort of nerdy (actually, I still am), I decided to reduce my focus on exams and spent time exploring other fascinating things about college life (like dating, playing snooker, etc). In the end I only got Second Upper for my Degree. Then reality hit when I graduated and began looking for jobs. There are so many fresh graduates every year that the very same managers who claimed that exam results are not important, will mostly select candidates with First Class Degree and discard the rest of the resumes. So if any of you reading this are still in college/university, study hard and bloody get your First Class, and never never never trust that [Exam results are not important]!

It has been good for me though, coming to Penang. I managed to squeeze myself into an American MNC, my manager was very good, and I thoroughly enjoyed my early working life. I even got the opportunity to travel to the US quite frequently. That's why I managed to stay on for 6 years and counting now. Problem is, the longer I work, the more I realize things don't add up. Shortly after I started working, we were hit my the worst economic crisis since The Great Depression. Since then I witnessed our beloved CEO repeatedly implement measures that cut into employees' welfare and benefits, while at the same time draw millions of dollars in bonus for himself. Every time he announces such new measures, my mood will plummet even more. To rub further salt into our wounds, he would make the trip to Penang every once in a while to tell us "We are all in this together, the fiscal measures affect all employees including me!"

I have been witnessing an engineer draw on average, a meager increment in salary of 5% annually, while the price of houses skyrocketed 50% or more. I have watched a plate of economic rice (basically set meal with rice and a couple dishes) increase in price from RM3.50 to RM6 over a 5 year span (70%), and a glass of iced coffee go from RM0.90 to RM1.60 (77% increase). I find myself always questioning myself: why is it the longer we work, the more tragic our life seems to become?

There was a time when I had a plan to create enough passive income at the age of 35, then retire and travel the world. Sadly, after a few years of being baptized by reality, the plan turns into a dream, in fact it is fast becoming more and more like an illusion. I have been working for 6 years, but today I feel almost exactly as accomplished as I felt like 6 years ago. What the heck have I been doing in these 6 years exactly?

Sometimes, I really feel like giving in to that rush of impulse and throw the resignation letter out, pack up my backpack and ride of into the sunset while searching for the love of my life. But every time, that feeling dissipates as quickly as it formed. I would think back to 6 years ago, when I resigned from my first job of 4 months, gave up everything and moved to Penang to hunt for a better job. I ended up going half a year without any income. Whenever I remind myself of this pathetic 6 months, all the fire in my belly is effectively doused.

Lately, I have been reading a lot of blogs by travel bloggers. I always end up feeling very envious of them, because they dared to do the thing that I did not and still do not dare to do. Amazingly, all of them bloggers appear to be so content with their decisions to give up everything, pack up and be on the move. Is my fear of the unknown misguided?? Should I really rekindle the same kind of passion that I had 6 years ago, and once again set everything down and just, go?

This is very frustrating.

Saturday, June 28, 2014

Experiment Results

On average, each of my blog post garners between 20 to 30 views, and it takes 2 weeks to get there.

This experiment, which I did 2 days ago:
Insider News: Who Will Win The World Cup 2014

It is a crap post, with no coherent content, misleading heading and keywords, and basically just a rubbish article. The only thing it is rich in is SEO friendly keywords.


Kind of makes me feel depressed considering that I wanted to start writing seriously again. I'm a huge fan of casual and spontaneous when it comes to expressing my views into words. If I have to worry about what keywords to use when I write articles, might as well forget it.

Thursday, June 26, 2014

Insider News: Who Will Win The World Cup 2014

Actually, this post is an experiment in SEO and it's pitfalls. I am not going to talk about who will win the World Cup in Brazil. I am not going to talk about either Neymar will beat Messi, or the other way round. What do you think I am? Paul the Octopus? When it comes to predicting football, I am more like Pele, always getting it wrongly!

I just wanted to test how much hits I am going to get in a blog post rich with SEO friendly keywords but have utter nonsense content. What is SEO? For the uninitiated, it is an abbreviation for Search Engine Optimization.

Over the past couple of weeks, while studying the art of traffic generating writing, I came to a realization that most websites spend unbelievable amount of focus and money to ensure their websites rank top in search engines. Most of the time, really meaningful content is sacrificed so that articles can squeeze in Googlebot friendly keywords.

The other day I came across in Google, an article with the title: Piers Morgan Will Marry Taeyeon. What a shocking title, so naturally I clicked in to peek. Turns out it is a website selling golf clubs. The whole article was talking about golf clubs, until the last sentence which said: If Piers Morgan plays golf with our super clubs, even the Korean hot babe Taeyeon of Girls Generation will want to marry him.

Good job, you got me, and wasted 5 minutes of my time reading something totally unrelated to your title and heading.

Okay before I end, maybe I will try to make whoever of you who came here feel your time is less wasted. I will attempt to give you my prediction on who will win the World Cup this year. And by the way, sorry for tricking you guys into clicking this link.

Brazil will win the World Cup.


You are not making a prediction, you are just stating a fact!

Sunday, June 22, 2014

ABOUT ME

I sometimes get asked why there isn't an ABOUT ME post. I never bothered. Lately I'm getting a few queries again. Well...

I started this blog back when Facebook was unknown (at least in this part of the world), and when then term iPhone was nonexistent. This is a really really old blog, I reckon, so I think it is fitting that I use a really really old method to write the ABOUT ME.

I will write them down on a piece of paper with a pen. Here goes...